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You don't make it easy by telling me before I get to agree js

But I'm not that big of a dick, I'm not gonna get into it if you don't want me to. Mine are objects too I just wanted to make sure I wasn't the only one.

Is the car smth that got shrunk or was it always little in your world? Jw you don't have to answer

(it's a relief. noctis is giving more respect for his privacy than he's received in years.)

Lol ik ik dw. I haven't been told about anyone else's, and I won't use yours as an example or anything. That's nobody's business except your own.

The car was big once. I legit didn't even recognize it at first and thought it was a super weird out-of-place toy or smth. It's bizarre, I really have no idea what to think about it.

??? so it's replicas of stuff we know, not the actual items. That's what I'm getting from that, anyway. Not sure what to do with the info but it's good to work with.

You cool if I ask you some other questions? Not about the tethers, just you lol bad taste in games aside

Huh

ig that is good info all things considered. I didn't even think about that, gg man (look at me supporting your game addiction and not crying about things other ppl like).

Ask away.

Yeah yeah try to guilt me and I'll just dunk on you harder.

Anyway you said you're 18. So..... are you in school? What do you do?

Yeah I'm in hs, my last few months of it. You guys have hs right?

I couldn't wait to be done with all that lol now my diploma is seeming p unimportant atm. I don't "do" anything though ig. You're definitely out of school now right? Do you guys go to college in your world?

Unfortunately lol

Guess I can't complain since it's all behind me, no more exams to deal with. College is an option yeah but I went another way. Didn't really seem like smth I needed tbh

Why, were you planning to go?

Not really. I don't think it'd be for me.

Mind if I ask which way you did happen to go? The ninja route? Swinging a sword around and teleporting places for a salary?

[ Okay, Noctis, you've had literal weeks to think of a cover. ]

Me?

I'm a photographer [ Hard wince... Prompto's image had appeared so starkly in his mind and now that's an answer he can't take back. But Prompto also fights, doesn't he? The young man is always at his side, camera in one hand and firearm in the other – the wrong person's truth is more believable than the right person's lie. ]

And I'm a guard. It could pay better [ so I HEAR ] but there's a lot of bonuses like housing so I can't complain much. Looking for ideas?

A photographer and guard. Wow, diversify much?? Do you take pics of the ppl you guard? hahaha

No that's cool, they both sound p neat. I'm not looking for ideas either, I just wanted to know more about you. That was the goal of this convo right? Meeting in a more normal way.

You had your own house?

Sometimes lol but they're pretty discreet so I'm not out here advertising it. Don't come for me asking for free shots either, pretty sure I don't need exposure for my work here.

I had a condo, twice as good. I'm guessing you live at home?

You can't even take free pics of me???? Why am I even friends w/ you.🙄🙄

You'd guess right, but dad and I just moved from home too. Everything was new and I don't think I was as prepared for that as I thought I'd be lol. A condo sounds sick though, like having a space all to yourself.

[ He skims the message that Jonas might mean as inconsequential but that sits oddly with Noctis, immediately struck by how it sounds in his head. Friends? Prompto's made it so the term is a little less foreign to his ears but exposure isn't necessarily comfortability.

It felt unspoken that he and Jonas were still maintaining a distance with one another, one he's even enforced in this very conversation with his unwillingness to discuss his home country in any meaningful detail. But here he is, applying a title that all but one of his old classmates would never be bold enough to touch. Is it payback, because Noctis helped him? Is it a response to there being few people in their tight age range with similar frames of reference? Does Jonas actually enjoy his company?

Why would he? What do you offer him? Your awkward questions, your terrible lies? He's lonely and he's reaching. It's pathetic, really, that you're thinking so hard about this when he's already moved on to something else. Are you trying to replace everyone back home so fast? ]

Ikr it's crazy, you must really be suffering over there.

You moved into a new house or smth? I get family can be a weird subject, lmk if you wanna talk about smth else

(questions bordering on uncomfortable are posed, almost expected by jonas who has guarded against them before. his answers to them haven't changed, but since approaching edwards island, they have more complexity to them.

his sadness is almost synonymous with his bitterness. it shows.)

Only if you promise not to apologize at me or come up with witty commentary about it lol.

It's not revolutionary, but you'd be stunned by how warranted my saying all this is.

[ So the answer is delicate. A story of loss or some other sadness, with the way Jonas is prepping him not to apologize for what he's about to reveal. He feels simultaneously that he can't quite handle hearing about any more and also that he wants to hear this more than almost anything else. ]

Dw, I'm good for keeping my word.

I promise you're not gonna get either one from me

(well, we'll see, won't we? comes the immediate and insistent thought.

it doesn't belong to his shadow.)

My dad remarried and we left our old place for his new wife's and daughter's place.

And before you ask what that would've made them to me in our weird new happy family dynamic, the answer could only be "stepmother" and "stepsister." That's a freebie.

[ Remarried? So his mom's out of the picture, one way or another. Noctis fidgets with his phone for a moment before the reply comes. ]

Yeah we have step-siblings and step-parents where I'm from too

[ Just going to assume he's been running into people here that? for some reason wouldn't get that? But he's in unchartered waters here and Jonas has already pre-warned him of choppy seas. ]

Are they cool? Your stepsister and stepmom.

I just met them before I died. I've literally known you longer.

(he knows how his text tone is coming across. it's curt and biting, and he wouldn't normally let up on that.

noctis has been put into an awkward position, however, and jonas knows that, too.)

I didn't know much about my stepmom but she'd been trying really hard to make me feel welcome and I really appreciated that. Alex too but idk how much of that was her mom's influence. It was all awkward, so I couldn't exactly blame her.

She was cool off and on. We were forced into a tense situation together so I can only imagine that coloured our opinions lol. Maybe in some other time or universe or smth I'm still there and we get to know each other better.

Anyway, I'm done talking about it. Sorry this got weird.

[ Blunt wording he's incapable of fully understanding – "before I died" – has him clicking his tongue but he doesn't interrupt with any quick replies, patiently watching those three dots come and go as Jonas composes his full answer. ]

You already made it sound like it was an adjustment but that's beyond what I was expecting tbh

[ Some faint wisdom he's not aware he has stops him from adding on any potential criticisms of Jonas's father, ones to the flavor of "why wouldn't he let you get to know them before he got married?" As if he can talk.. ]

It's not weird. I'm not just saying that either. Weird as a situation maybe but not for me to read about it. You want a second chance at it then stick around me. I'm not planning on staying here long and if I get an opening to drag a few others out with me I will

I don't understand this, man.

I'm appreciative and all, but what about all the ppl hanging out here? Our lives are supposed to be finished, at least that's what I've been hearing from the reapers and everybody. We emerged naked from horror movie egg sacks. Can we really just leave?

(a large part of him would rather shun his own pessimism and cling to what noctis is offering. any chance to go home is one he'd readily take even if the road was long and hard.

unfortunately, a dark swell pushes jonas into the backseat of his own mind, committed to preventing that relapse into fantasy.)

Give me a break.

I didn't think so many of you would be holding so tightly to that "if there's a way in, there's a way out" adage. Loosen that grip, hon, bc I'm here to tell you there doesn't have to be. If I'm trapped here, so are you.

[ The kneejerk anger hits him harder than he expected and so suddenly in the middle of a vulnerable pocket of conversation. Jonas is opening up, but what's inside for him to show isn't just a sad teenager adjusting to difficult changes in his home life. There's a well of bitterness that lives in both of them, and now he's getting a very real taste. ]

Our lives are supposed to be finished? Good for whatever is picking out what's "supposed to be". I've got bigger things to answer to back home.

If you wanna lie down and not think about it, do it. When I figure it out you can hitch a ride, but you don't get to tell me to quit just because you can't think of an answer. You wanna see your family, right? Then you owe it to them to not just believe everything they're feeding us here

Oh, yeah, a photographer bodyguard. Sounds like you really had a lot on your plate lmfao.

(jonas' shadow doesn't smile, doesn't laugh, and doesn't make the situation lighthearted by tacking on a joke. there's nothing funny about it. it's scary, but despite that fear, he's never felt so free. no expectations, no apologies, no trying to climb ladders whose rungs have been forcibly snapped by the people who were supposed to strengthen them and support him.

they deserve to be here.)

You just don't get it do you? I've spent the last few days meditating on this one. These ppl aren't being forced to tell us lies, they don't have time to. They're living this shit daily. They built entire homes and businesses that have been here for God knows how long bc they couldn't get back home. And you think you're better than them? Every single one of them?

Nothing's bigger than death, except maybe the death of that ego.

Oh you've been meditating on it huh? Then there's no way I could argue with you because you obviously know everything about how things run here lmao

[ But he does know. He sees it. ]

What the hell is your problem here, seriously? You're this adamant about me giving up? You don't know what you're talking about and you don't know who I am

[ Should he be impressed? As if you seem like some kind of savior, as if you could lead anyone... He can see what you really are. A king of imposters, happier to stick your head in the sand and get righteous instead of putting in the real work. ]

If you wanna say I have an ego because I won't just lie down and die then I have a fucking ego. Say it to my face next time.

Wooow, brownie points for the guy threatening someone for speaking the truth. You can save those up and put em toward your Ascension fund!

You think just bc you offered me a helping hand I'll believe your take over that of the masses who've probably been trapped here for like..... decades?? You're not THAT pretty lmfao. The next time we meet up, I'll give you a much more formal "no" in person.

I'd really, really like to see what you're gonna do about it.

(whether noctis responds to jonas' shadow or not, it makes no difference, because control is relinquished and the host body, too easily taken over by forces outside of its control after countless intrusions, faints in the window of his harbourside home.

it's over an hour later when the next text comes.)

I'm sorry

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