I have a splitting headache so I'm gonna go with a "yes, I hit my head," but I'm coherent and spelling things right. ig it was just a love tap from the floor or smth. idk
You just said you didn't "decide" anything and now you're blaming yourself. Which is it?
bc man, I didn't want to sound crazy, but I've honestly had enough of fibbing to make other ppl feel better in scary situations so here goes: I've been feeling this thing in the back of my head since we got to Stygia and it's been saying the worst shit ever.
[ Did he choose to go after Jonas? No, not consciously. Were his fingers still the ones that typed those messages? Undoubtedly. Just like he was the one that freaked him out the day the Soulidarity app went live, that was him. Or some version of him that this place feels like creating to mess with them all, and that's a much more appealing idea that he wants to latch onto. ]
Like it's talking to you or smth? Idk maybe someone or smth is contacting us and taking control when we least expect it. It's just messed up that they know so much about us. That's the piece I don't get.
Look w/e it is maybe if we talk to each other about it we can figure smth out
Well, whatever this thing is it's not me. I'M me. And I'M sick of this shit. That's all I know and it's all I want to know. I want it out of me.
(it's taking hold of him. it's taking him over. it's filling itself into the hollow parts of his body and manoeuvring him around like a doll. it's just like before, only this time there's no pain to tell him when.
jonas sits heavily on the couch and leans forward onto his knees.)
Just like that's not you. It's just not, so let's work off that.
rn though I don't want to talk about it. I want to talk about smth normal for like 5 minutes without being interrupted by smth horrible.
He wants a straight answer out of somebody, no more avoiding, no more bullshit, no more tasteful dancing around a problem or tasteless outright aversion. No glances away in an effort to pretend something painful hasn't just happened, no theatrical performances of normal.
But. But. He feels in the very fiber of his being that persistent desire to be average, to break from the irrationality of a strange life and a stranger vacation from it just to talk to someone who understands. ]
Okay.
We take 5. We were talking about stuff we were into earlier right?
(wanting to move on is far easier than actually putting it into practice. the mood has been irrevocably sullied by their shadows, so how are they meant to contend with that? jonas feels as though his heart might stop with how hard it's pounding in his chest. if it doesn't, dry-heaving is still a very real possibility.
it was his demand, which makes him the one responsible for easing them into another topic.)
Piano's cool, I've always wanted to learn. For keyboarding or like synth stuff yk?
I play ukulele and guitar. ik sometimes ppl say if you play one you'll be at least familiar with the others like electric guitar, bass guitar, etc. but it's actually way harder than that so. Going from ukulele to guitar was so weird.
Did you try to play video game stuff on the piano when you had the chance? Lol
So you're not into trying to play big classical numbers? I only ever got stuck with the slow boring waltzes
And nah, video games came later for me. I stuck to myself as a kid so I didn't know anyone who gamed and it wasn't smth that was around. When I finally started I hadn't touched a piano in years.
Good god ia, waltzes are the worst. They make me think of chicks in ballgowns and a bunch of pretentious dudes. I'd like to play some classical stuff though ig, it just wouldn't be my actual focus.
My mom wouldn't let me have game systems bc she thought they'd rot my brain or whatever, so she taught me about music instead. Like how to really appreciate it. She taught me ukulele. After that, idk I think I thought guitar would make me popular, hilariously. And it worked, just in weird ways.
I don't regret it and I do really like it, I just wish I hadn't done it to impress ppl. Hobbies should just be for your own enjoyment, like music or sports or video games or..... whatever.
[ Considering the few parties at which a very shy young prince had been encouraged to play a few bars, incredibly reluctantly? Jonas's description is pretty close to home. Ballgowns and pretentious guys, huh... ]
Yeah.
Idk it sounds like a win win. You came out of it thinking a new way and got a hobby you still like. That's cool.
I've seen music shops. And it'd be pretty weird if people didn't play sports, but you could probably get them on board if they didn't. Games idk, I haven't looked. Fsr buying one here would feel off
That's a better way to see it, probably. You think it's cool, I just think it's lame.
Also lame: trying to make people play sports with me here. Like your thing w/ the games, it'd feel super weird. It'd be like..... me pretending to be into it the whole time while handling a mental breakdown poorly. Or maybe it wouldn't at all. Maybe it'd be good exercise and a healthy coping mechanism.
Either way, ik what you're saying, I think. If not, then we'll be confused together.
So it's rabbit not rabit? Lol wow someone was lying
[ It's a safer topic than painstakingly explaining that it's less coddling and more an attempt to find something that will make them both feel better, as well as an admission that Jonas's wellbeing genuinely matters to him now. He doesn't want to touch on any of it just yet. ]
I've got a couple, it just kind of happened. The details aren't really the important part, what matters is none of them have names yet.
Well whatever, I'm the uncrowned king of naming things, so you came to the right guy. Lemme ask you this though bc I'm gonna drop a bunch of puns on you probably: Did you have rabbits in your world?
the comment, openly flirtatious in jonas' eyes, gets a short lean back in response. it takes him half a minute of silent reflection to then doubt that was noctis' intention.)
If it looks like a rabbit and hops like a rabbit then it's probably a rabbit. They actually go by a bunch of names, nicknames almost. "Bunny rabbit" is one, so just keep that in mind for the next bit.
Honeybun. One has to be named Honeybun.
Cadbury (chocolate brand w/ a bunny mascot). Duracell (battery brand w/ a bunny mascot. Sir Hopsalot (obvious). Peter Cottontail (a rabbit character). Also Ted Bundy, but he was an actual serial killer.
Bunny? Seriously? Where did that even come from lmao
[ It's cute....... ]
Okay there's 6 of them so hold on. Honeybun? Cadbury, Duracell, Sir Hopsalot, Peter Cottontail, that's 5 and not all of them are passing my screening. If you think I'm naming one after a murderer when they already watch me sleep you're way off.
Fine, tough crowd, wow. I thought Duracell was badass.
How are Thaddeus and Faustina any better? What even are those names dude I'm cracking up. Like no judgement, I'm just thinking about a bunny named Thaddeus.
Actually, we absolutely have to name one Thaddeus hahahaha
I should've known that you'd have already actually chosen which one's gonna be Thaddeus.
I think Thaddeus is a respectable lady's name if you happen to have messed that up bc sorry but no I don't gender rabbits in my daily life back home. Also just a heads-up, you should probably find out quick and keep the guys and girls separate.
There's a saying on earth: "fuck like rabbits" LOL it's probably already too late.
Okay so says the guy who obv doesn't know anyone named Thaddeus lol, I'm not doing that to any girl rabbit of mine. If I'm gonna have pets I'm gonna do it right.
[ Is he protective already? Maybe. But he's also always had a big weak spot for cute animals. ]
Also tell me you're not saying that they might have babies. There's already way too many of them as it is?
No, I do not know anyone named Thaddeus. Nobody in Oregon is named Thaddeus. Nobody in the US is named Thaddeus. Probably. Anyway it's super rare and ancient.
(such an aramaic grandfather name, dude. source: trust me.)
And that is precisely what I'm saying. I am 100% serious about it too, like the whole pregnancy thing could be super real rn.
ig we could take them to the vet to see. Are there even vets here?
Why are you asking me? It's not like I've been looking around for them.
[ The stress of potential rabbit grandparenthood is starting to set in as he gives his brood a side-eye, all of them behaving and keeping politely to themselves. They don't... seem sex-crazed... ]
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I just wanna make sure you didn't hit your head or anything or
Idk
Stuff that's not "I'll get over it".
[ It's a lot of words to cover his worry for the other young man and the accompany huge wave of guilt. ]
Ngl I don't really feel like talking about me after what I said.
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You just said you didn't "decide" anything and now you're blaming yourself. Which is it?
bc man, I didn't want to sound crazy, but I've honestly had enough of fibbing to make other ppl feel better in scary situations so here goes: I've been feeling this thing in the back of my head since we got to Stygia and it's been saying the worst shit ever.
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[ Did he choose to go after Jonas? No, not consciously. Were his fingers still the ones that typed those messages? Undoubtedly. Just like he was the one that freaked him out the day the Soulidarity app went live, that was him. Or some version of him that this place feels like creating to mess with them all, and that's a much more appealing idea that he wants to latch onto. ]
Like it's talking to you or smth? Idk maybe someone or smth is contacting us and taking control when we least expect it. It's just messed up that they know so much about us. That's the piece I don't get.
Look w/e it is maybe if we talk to each other about it we can figure smth out
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(it's taking hold of him. it's taking him over. it's filling itself into the hollow parts of his body and manoeuvring him around like a doll. it's just like before, only this time there's no pain to tell him when.
jonas sits heavily on the couch and leans forward onto his knees.)
Just like that's not you. It's just not, so let's work off that.
rn though I don't want to talk about it. I want to talk about smth normal for like 5 minutes without being interrupted by smth horrible.
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He wants a straight answer out of somebody, no more avoiding, no more bullshit, no more tasteful dancing around a problem or tasteless outright aversion. No glances away in an effort to pretend something painful hasn't just happened, no theatrical performances of normal.
But. But. He feels in the very fiber of his being that persistent desire to be average, to break from the irrationality of a strange life and a stranger vacation from it just to talk to someone who understands. ]
Okay.
We take 5. We were talking about stuff we were into earlier right?
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(wanting to move on is far easier than actually putting it into practice. the mood has been irrevocably sullied by their shadows, so how are they meant to contend with that? jonas feels as though his heart might stop with how hard it's pounding in his chest. if it doesn't, dry-heaving is still a very real possibility.
it was his demand, which makes him the one responsible for easing them into another topic.)
Do you play any instruments?
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Not well enough that I'd do it here lol
My dad pushed me into piano ig as a kid. Basic. What about you?
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I play ukulele and guitar. ik sometimes ppl say if you play one you'll be at least familiar with the others like electric guitar, bass guitar, etc. but it's actually way harder than that so. Going from ukulele to guitar was so weird.
Did you try to play video game stuff on the piano when you had the chance? Lol
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And nah, video games came later for me. I stuck to myself as a kid so I didn't know anyone who gamed and it wasn't smth that was around. When I finally started I hadn't touched a piano in years.
What made you want to pick up the guitar too?
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My mom wouldn't let me have game systems bc she thought they'd rot my brain or whatever, so she taught me about music instead. Like how to really appreciate it. She taught me ukulele. After that, idk I think I thought guitar would make me popular, hilariously. And it worked, just in weird ways.
I don't regret it and I do really like it, I just wish I hadn't done it to impress ppl. Hobbies should just be for your own enjoyment, like music or sports or video games or..... whatever.
I wonder if there are any here.
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Yeah.
Idk it sounds like a win win. You came out of it thinking a new way and got a hobby you still like. That's cool.
I've seen music shops. And it'd be pretty weird if people didn't play sports, but you could probably get them on board if they didn't. Games idk, I haven't looked. Fsr buying one here would feel off
Idk if that makes sense.
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Also lame: trying to make people play sports with me here. Like your thing w/ the games, it'd feel super weird. It'd be like..... me pretending to be into it the whole time while handling a mental breakdown poorly. Or maybe it wouldn't at all. Maybe it'd be good exercise and a healthy coping mechanism.
Either way, ik what you're saying, I think. If not, then we'll be confused together.
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[ Gladio would never let him hear the end of it. Gladio never lets him hear the end of anything. ]
Here's another question.
If you were gonna name a rabit what would you name it?
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(this double-whammy.)
This is a weird question dude, do you have a rabbit?
I'd probably call it smth funny like after a celebrity or smth.
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[ It's a safer topic than painstakingly explaining that it's less coddling and more an attempt to find something that will make them both feel better, as well as an admission that Jonas's wellbeing genuinely matters to him now. He doesn't want to touch on any of it just yet. ]
I've got a couple, it just kind of happened. The details aren't really the important part, what matters is none of them have names yet.
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Well whatever, I'm the uncrowned king of naming things, so you came to the right guy. Lemme ask you this though bc I'm gonna drop a bunch of puns on you probably: Did you have rabbits in your world?
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[ He has no idea what he's in for and it shows. ]
But no. If there were I'd have it spelled right, js, w/e I'm dealing with is smaller than a cat but with way bigger ears.
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the comment, openly flirtatious in jonas' eyes, gets a short lean back in response. it takes him half a minute of silent reflection to then doubt that was noctis' intention.)
If it looks like a rabbit and hops like a rabbit then it's probably a rabbit. They actually go by a bunch of names, nicknames almost. "Bunny rabbit" is one, so just keep that in mind for the next bit.
Honeybun. One has to be named Honeybun.
Cadbury (chocolate brand w/ a bunny mascot). Duracell (battery brand w/ a bunny mascot. Sir Hopsalot (obvious). Peter Cottontail (a rabbit character). Also Ted Bundy, but he was an actual serial killer.
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[ It's cute....... ]
Okay there's 6 of them so hold on. Honeybun? Cadbury, Duracell, Sir Hopsalot, Peter Cottontail, that's 5 and not all of them are passing my screening. If you think I'm naming one after a murderer when they already watch me sleep you're way off.
Duracell and Sir Hopsalot are kinda eh 😶
All I had so far was Thaddeus and Faustina.
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How are Thaddeus and Faustina any better? What even are those names dude I'm cracking up. Like no judgement, I'm just thinking about a bunny named Thaddeus.
Actually, we absolutely have to name one Thaddeus hahahaha
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Wtf is wrong with Thaddeus? Maybe if you'd met them you'd get it, you'd get how it suits him.
[ Suddenly, however, he realizes something. ]
Do you know how to tell a guy rabbit from a girl rabbit?
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I think Thaddeus is a respectable lady's name if you happen to have messed that up bc sorry but no I don't gender rabbits in my daily life back home. Also just a heads-up, you should probably find out quick and keep the guys and girls separate.
There's a saying on earth: "fuck like rabbits" LOL it's probably already too late.
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[ Is he protective already? Maybe. But he's also always had a big weak spot for cute animals. ]
Also tell me you're not saying that they might have babies. There's already way too many of them as it is?
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(such an aramaic grandfather name, dude. source: trust me.)
And that is precisely what I'm saying. I am 100% serious about it too, like the whole pregnancy thing could be super real rn.
ig we could take them to the vet to see. Are there even vets here?
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[ The stress of potential rabbit grandparenthood is starting to set in as he gives his brood a side-eye, all of them behaving and keeping politely to themselves. They don't... seem sex-crazed... ]
Is this you volunteering to go look? Lmao
Thaddeus is priority one.
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