( Noctis and Cain might be getting along better, but there's still distance. He can't blame them, not when the better parts of their entire lives haven't been shared.
It's how it's supposed to go. Drip-feed friends information and they won't spook and run off. )
I think so too Though I'm trying really hard to picture you in a tux now Sorry bout it
tbh I think you'd look better in one of those fishing hats with hooks and crap hanging off them In a tackle vest yk? And you stand there like such a dad with your hands on your hips like "Ahhh the fish'll be biting today yes siree" Or like "I'll rustle us up some grub" lol
Like with a cummerbund and bowtie? Lol not in a million years, I think you're forgetting that I actually have really good taste and it's getting you confused
So how about you invent another doppelganger for me like you did when we met and he can wear the shitty outfits while I just take the tackles and extra fishing line
[ Yeah, that's right. He still hasn't forgotten about that strange chapter in their history. ]
Don't even go there that was so creepy Besides I really like the mental imagine of YOU wearing a cummerbund Lol 😌
Hey when we can, we should go Fishing the second we're not surrounded by a bunch of crappy sand That's how we can celebrate new years Set your standards bar high for all future new years
[ It sounds like a bad idea. He's managed to successfully ignore the voices in his head – Cor, Gladio, Ignis – who remind him of his entanglements here and their weight back home. Being Jonas's friend is acceptable. Being whatever he felt he was with him under a blanket of stars, vulnerable, united, a picture without borders... isn't. That person could make mistakes.
How does he reconcile the two? ]
You sure?
Last time I thought you were gonna freeze to death
Lol yeah yeah Good theory though I think we're heading out on the road soonish? Maybe we'll finally get to find out where we're going, then we can get a better idea if there's literally anything of note on this planet AT ALL
[ The words "of course" are typed before he can stop himself, but what he can keep himself from doing is hitting send. He stares at them, questioning himself with a slow deletion of each letter. ]
I don't know. Long term and short term are pretty different
You mean letting Cain in on some of my info? yk we can dissolve the group chat if you guys want We all really tried, so if it's not working, you shouldn't feel pressured either way
idk if you want to hear a solution rn though or if you want to just get it off your chest Tell me to shut it if you wanna vent
[ It's a bit more forceful now as he realizes that he doesn't know how to communicate it either. And for the response to be a suggestion to dissolve their chat is... extreme to him, and unintended. It's enough to spook him away from a topic he's already ill-equipped to discuss. ]
Long term? I hit you with a lot of long term before. Long term is saying bye to this place and getting back to Eos
I genuinely don't know Are you looking for a specific answer? I'm miserable and I'm trying not to be miserable Short term I'd like to live Long term I'd like to live It's pretty instinctual over here lol
ik I can But like where would I even start? How do you talk about something you don't even understand? Like I'm genuinely not trying to be a dick but I don't know what you want Maybe we do need to ask specifics It's a little fucked up to think about all at once I'm sure you feel the same about your long term
But all I want you to know more than anything rn is I'm here for you. I can't go through it for you but I can be here while you do. Everything else we can do one day at a time if you want
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It's how it's supposed to go. Drip-feed friends information and they won't spook and run off. )
I think so too
Though I'm trying really hard to picture you in a tux now
Sorry bout it
tbh I think you'd look better in one of those fishing hats with hooks and crap hanging off them
In a tackle vest yk?
And you stand there like such a dad with your hands on your hips like
"Ahhh the fish'll be biting today yes siree"
Or like "I'll rustle us up some grub" lol
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Like with a cummerbund and bowtie? Lol not in a million years, I think you're forgetting that I actually have really good taste and it's getting you confused
So how about you invent another doppelganger for me like you did when we met and he can wear the shitty outfits while I just take the tackles and extra fishing line
[ Yeah, that's right. He still hasn't forgotten about that strange chapter in their history. ]
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wipes his eyes, sitting up a bit straighter )
Don't even go there that was so creepy
Besides I really like the mental imagine of YOU wearing a cummerbund
Lol
😌
Hey when we can, we should go
Fishing the second we're not surrounded by a bunch of crappy sand
That's how we can celebrate new years
Set your standards bar high for all future new years
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[ With softer features, fluffier hair, and more luminous eyes. Uncanny......
The offer stops his teasing, however, head tilting as he considers it. ]
Fr? You wanna fish with me
You
After all you said about it
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I was teasing you nerd lmao
Yeah I wanna fish with you
We can cook it after😛
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Okay
Then we say our goodbyes, sit together, and fish.
Deal?
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We never did stargaze really
We kind of got distracted
That can be the night portion?
For real this time
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How does he reconcile the two? ]
You sure?
Last time I thought you were gonna freeze to death
[ calmly projects... ]
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It doesn't. )
Goodbyes, fishing, stargazing
I'm sure
You don't have to lmk now if you want time to think about it
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Though who knows
If it's somewhere that actually has fish maybe it'll be warmer. More stars
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Good theory though
I think we're heading out on the road soonish?
Maybe we'll finally get to find out where we're going, then we can get a better idea if there's literally anything of note on this planet AT ALL
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[ His pithiest joke yet. ]
Hey
You okay?
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Smiles a bit, eyes softening. )
Not really tbh
Are you?
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I don't know. Long term and short term are pretty different
Has he responded to you? It's not that, right
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Talk to me
Tell me about the short term
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[ Then all he has to do with that is to trust both of them. And he finds, shockingly, that he does. ]
Short term is better
But last night threw me off ig. Not you, me
And sometimes the convos with all three of us are harder
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yk we can dissolve the group chat if you guys want
We all really tried, so if it's not working, you shouldn't feel pressured either way
idk if you want to hear a solution rn though or if you want to just get it off your chest
Tell me to shut it if you wanna vent
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The gc's cool, seriously forget that part. I'll just actually reread my texts before I send them next time 👍
I told you short terms better. Getting out of this camp and doing anything else will help
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idrk what you're talking about though man
Sorry I'm just confused
Maybe like
What's your long term?
You wanna talk about it?
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[ It's a bit more forceful now as he realizes that he doesn't know how to communicate it either. And for the response to be a suggestion to dissolve their chat is... extreme to him, and unintended. It's enough to spook him away from a topic he's already ill-equipped to discuss. ]
Long term? I hit you with a lot of long term before. Long term is saying bye to this place and getting back to Eos
It's a lot to think about rn
Can you tell me what's on your mind too?
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Are you looking for a specific answer?
I'm miserable and I'm trying not to be miserable
Short term I'd like to live
Long term I'd like to live
It's pretty instinctual over here lol
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I get that it repeats a lot, but yk you can talk to me when you need to right
About w/e
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But like where would I even start?
How do you talk about something you don't even understand?
Like I'm genuinely not trying to be a dick but I don't know what you want
Maybe we do need to ask specifics
It's a little fucked up to think about all at once
I'm sure you feel the same about your long term
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I can get more specific, sure
But all I want you to know more than anything rn is I'm here for you. I can't go through it for you but I can be here while you do. Everything else we can do one day at a time if you want
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sorry...
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now I'm sorry...
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