[ It sounds like a bad idea. He's managed to successfully ignore the voices in his head – Cor, Gladio, Ignis – who remind him of his entanglements here and their weight back home. Being Jonas's friend is acceptable. Being whatever he felt he was with him under a blanket of stars, vulnerable, united, a picture without borders... isn't. That person could make mistakes.
How does he reconcile the two? ]
You sure?
Last time I thought you were gonna freeze to death
Lol yeah yeah Good theory though I think we're heading out on the road soonish? Maybe we'll finally get to find out where we're going, then we can get a better idea if there's literally anything of note on this planet AT ALL
[ The words "of course" are typed before he can stop himself, but what he can keep himself from doing is hitting send. He stares at them, questioning himself with a slow deletion of each letter. ]
I don't know. Long term and short term are pretty different
You mean letting Cain in on some of my info? yk we can dissolve the group chat if you guys want We all really tried, so if it's not working, you shouldn't feel pressured either way
idk if you want to hear a solution rn though or if you want to just get it off your chest Tell me to shut it if you wanna vent
[ It's a bit more forceful now as he realizes that he doesn't know how to communicate it either. And for the response to be a suggestion to dissolve their chat is... extreme to him, and unintended. It's enough to spook him away from a topic he's already ill-equipped to discuss. ]
Long term? I hit you with a lot of long term before. Long term is saying bye to this place and getting back to Eos
I genuinely don't know Are you looking for a specific answer? I'm miserable and I'm trying not to be miserable Short term I'd like to live Long term I'd like to live It's pretty instinctual over here lol
ik I can But like where would I even start? How do you talk about something you don't even understand? Like I'm genuinely not trying to be a dick but I don't know what you want Maybe we do need to ask specifics It's a little fucked up to think about all at once I'm sure you feel the same about your long term
But all I want you to know more than anything rn is I'm here for you. I can't go through it for you but I can be here while you do. Everything else we can do one day at a time if you want
Did you know that you can apparently kill ghosts with salt? Yeah, Dean told me Then he told me to basically drown myself in the ocean to purge my body of them if they're possessing me or whatever Which is funny because they came from the water and I did drown None of that helped
People always assume they can do something It's not Dean's fault, I'm sure holding a thrashing kid's head underwater helps a lot back whenever he's from But solutions don't work, nothing we've tried ever does And we came up with a literally infinite number of plans to stop it lol
So all I've ever really wanted is someone to just hold my hand and tell me that it won't be okay That I'll probably be fucked but I gave it my best shot and that was actually good enough for once ofc you'll watch me go through it Because ik you're there for me when you're like literally the only other person who is
He'd talked to him about demons, about his role in his world, about Earth's hidden side. And he'd thought of Jonas. Wondering if he might apply some of that knowledge to help him. Exactly what Jonas expresses frustration with now, and he can guess why. Failing, again and again, brings with it its own knowledge. And how tired must he be of having to hope each time, for his own or someone else's sake? ]
You want me to be honest?
Being here from a world no one else gets, it makes it obvious how different all the rules are. Earth and Eos. Eos and Mars. Earth and Earth. What works for him wouldn't work where I'm from. Didn't for you
I offered you what I did bc I never want you to go back there. If you did I'd be the same as him, throwing a bunch of ideas at smth you've already tried to solve
I agreed to say goodbye to you bc I don't know what this place is gonna let me do. If smth changes before I can make sure you're safe in Eos. I'm gonna fight for that. I don't wanna think about anything else
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[ With softer features, fluffier hair, and more luminous eyes. Uncanny......
The offer stops his teasing, however, head tilting as he considers it. ]
Fr? You wanna fish with me
You
After all you said about it
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I was teasing you nerd lmao
Yeah I wanna fish with you
We can cook it after😛
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Okay
Then we say our goodbyes, sit together, and fish.
Deal?
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Okay
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We never did stargaze really
We kind of got distracted
That can be the night portion?
For real this time
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How does he reconcile the two? ]
You sure?
Last time I thought you were gonna freeze to death
[ calmly projects... ]
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It doesn't. )
Goodbyes, fishing, stargazing
I'm sure
You don't have to lmk now if you want time to think about it
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Though who knows
If it's somewhere that actually has fish maybe it'll be warmer. More stars
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Good theory though
I think we're heading out on the road soonish?
Maybe we'll finally get to find out where we're going, then we can get a better idea if there's literally anything of note on this planet AT ALL
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[ His pithiest joke yet. ]
Hey
You okay?
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Smiles a bit, eyes softening. )
Not really tbh
Are you?
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I don't know. Long term and short term are pretty different
Has he responded to you? It's not that, right
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Talk to me
Tell me about the short term
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[ Then all he has to do with that is to trust both of them. And he finds, shockingly, that he does. ]
Short term is better
But last night threw me off ig. Not you, me
And sometimes the convos with all three of us are harder
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yk we can dissolve the group chat if you guys want
We all really tried, so if it's not working, you shouldn't feel pressured either way
idk if you want to hear a solution rn though or if you want to just get it off your chest
Tell me to shut it if you wanna vent
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The gc's cool, seriously forget that part. I'll just actually reread my texts before I send them next time 👍
I told you short terms better. Getting out of this camp and doing anything else will help
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idrk what you're talking about though man
Sorry I'm just confused
Maybe like
What's your long term?
You wanna talk about it?
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[ It's a bit more forceful now as he realizes that he doesn't know how to communicate it either. And for the response to be a suggestion to dissolve their chat is... extreme to him, and unintended. It's enough to spook him away from a topic he's already ill-equipped to discuss. ]
Long term? I hit you with a lot of long term before. Long term is saying bye to this place and getting back to Eos
It's a lot to think about rn
Can you tell me what's on your mind too?
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Are you looking for a specific answer?
I'm miserable and I'm trying not to be miserable
Short term I'd like to live
Long term I'd like to live
It's pretty instinctual over here lol
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I get that it repeats a lot, but yk you can talk to me when you need to right
About w/e
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But like where would I even start?
How do you talk about something you don't even understand?
Like I'm genuinely not trying to be a dick but I don't know what you want
Maybe we do need to ask specifics
It's a little fucked up to think about all at once
I'm sure you feel the same about your long term
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I can get more specific, sure
But all I want you to know more than anything rn is I'm here for you. I can't go through it for you but I can be here while you do. Everything else we can do one day at a time if you want
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Yeah, Dean told me
Then he told me to basically drown myself in the ocean to purge my body of them if they're possessing me or whatever
Which is funny because they came from the water and I did drown
None of that helped
People always assume they can do something
It's not Dean's fault, I'm sure holding a thrashing kid's head underwater helps a lot back whenever he's from
But solutions don't work, nothing we've tried ever does
And we came up with a literally infinite number of plans to stop it lol
So all I've ever really wanted is someone to just hold my hand and tell me that it won't be okay
That I'll probably be fucked but I gave it my best shot and that was actually good enough for once
ofc you'll watch me go through it
Because ik you're there for me when you're like literally the only other person who is
Tangent fucking over
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He'd talked to him about demons, about his role in his world, about Earth's hidden side. And he'd thought of Jonas. Wondering if he might apply some of that knowledge to help him. Exactly what Jonas expresses frustration with now, and he can guess why. Failing, again and again, brings with it its own knowledge. And how tired must he be of having to hope each time, for his own or someone else's sake? ]
You want me to be honest?
Being here from a world no one else gets, it makes it obvious how different all the rules are. Earth and Eos. Eos and Mars. Earth and Earth. What works for him wouldn't work where I'm from. Didn't for you
I offered you what I did bc I never want you to go back there. If you did I'd be the same as him, throwing a bunch of ideas at smth you've already tried to solve
I agreed to say goodbye to you bc I don't know what this place is gonna let me do. If smth changes before I can make sure you're safe in Eos. I'm gonna fight for that. I don't wanna think about anything else
But until we know
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I'm not far. You want your hand held, you don't have to tell me why
Just tell me when
sorry...
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now I'm sorry...
🤬
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