( What a text. Really, what a fucking text; he's pissed at it, because it should be remembered somewhere. Hanging on his wall or something, framed by platinum and titled.
He doesn't know what to say, really. Noctis refuses to let him fight alone, wants to fight for him instead, and a smirk juts out from the corner of Jonas' mouth. Of course, he does. Because that's the kind of King he is. )
No one has ever said anything like that to me before And to me it's a real novelty to hear something new
[ When he composes it, he's ready to apologize. It's not accepting failure, not when he intends to fight, and it's not quite telling Jonas that things aren't okay either. His mouth doesn't want to form the words, exactly.
So even though it's not something he'll take back and it's how he feels, he expects the very real possibility of this kicking up into a vent for Jonas's understandable frustrations. What he doesn't expect is something that's equally a novelty to him in return.
He doesn't cry, or even tear up. But it'd be a lie if he said he didn't want to. ]
It's not a competition with us
But if it were I'd be playing catch up after all you did for me before yk. I don't think you get it.
Sorry if this is super private but you don't seem like you're used to kindness Or at least like someone hugging you or telling you you can feel however I think that should change so idk if ever you're curious about any of it, I'm cool with that My mom was super affectionate, and that just caught on for me and my dad I'll never turn you away if you need something
[ Hugging him. Telling him his feelings are valid. Any gesture of physical affection that isn't inherently violent or used to tease. Without plausible deniability, it doesn't feel acceptable. ]
Idk. I can try. It's just different for me
But I wish I could've had a chance to meet your mom. Maybe I could tell her how much of her rubbed off on you. That you turned out okay, even with how lame you are. Those parts are good too
She was prob lame about some stuff too. So meeting you's like meeting half of her
( His vision blurs reading Noctis' next texts. God, he feels like a crybaby, and that's whatever, but with all of the gut-punches he's been experiencing lately, this is tipping him over the edge.
Hugging him, touching his hair, holding his waist, nearly kissing him in the cold dark... Jonas wishes he could rewind to that moment by the wing of his ship and ask Noctis for his permission to do so. It's almost impossible to stop himself now, with his thumbs shaking over the keyboard of his datapad.
To be compared so closely to his mom is the highest compliment anyone could give him. To admit he's blushing would be an understatement when his face feels like it's on fire. )
Saying this kind of thing to me lol You're seriously trying me
I'm not trying to mess with you, yk that right? If I ever push it just lmk. Sometimes they're hard for me to talk about too
[ Noctis, predictably, misunderstands. Gently, and with good intent, but a misunderstanding nevertheless. It doesn't mean Jonas's next words don't furrow his brow, forcing him to take a moment to himself. ]
Thanks Jonas
From what I heard about her, I think my mom would've felt the same with you. I'll have to keep an eye on you tho, for her sake
I'm not saying you're messing with me, man I'm just sensitive, so the things you say to me are worth a lot Like talking so nicely about my mom and saying you gotta watch my back for her Telling me your mom would like me too
Do you know what I mean?
( Of course, Noctis doesn't. Jonas doesn't even know what he's trying to say.
Maybe they can discuss it next time they're together, openly and frankly. Maybe on that day of fishing, quiet contemplation, and stargazing, after he's had time to organize his thoughts. About his fondness for Cain. About his fondness for Noctis.
nvm idek what I'm going on about lol, just listen I gotta go but I'll text you later What was your mom's name? Like real quick before I go, I just wanna know first
But he remembers how it felt when Jonas spoke to him gently after he told him about his father. Even if he never said Regis's name and the topic strayed so quickly from love to despair, he felt what it was to share a little piece of that part of himself and have it accepted. It felt like a different kind of love. ]
Sure np, this morning's kind of crazy
Thx for reaching out and talking. It helped, so if it helped you too that's good enough for me. And we can keep talking about it later if you want
About Suze. [ It fits. It sounds warm, inviting somehow. He isn't sure he could explain it. ]
Pushing outside into the sand, he chokes out a distressed "Yeah, okay," as though Noctis can hear him. Overwhelmed, he doesn't write back. Not when it'd be so much easier to sink into the strong affection he was finally feeling instead of grief and anxiety.
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I'm not far. You want your hand held, you don't have to tell me why
Just tell me when
sorry...
He doesn't know what to say, really. Noctis refuses to let him fight alone, wants to fight for him instead, and a smirk juts out from the corner of Jonas' mouth. Of course, he does. Because that's the kind of King he is. )
No one has ever said anything like that to me before
And to me it's a real novelty to hear something new
I love you for that, man
Thanks
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So even though it's not something he'll take back and it's how he feels, he expects the very real possibility of this kicking up into a vent for Jonas's understandable frustrations. What he doesn't expect is something that's equally a novelty to him in return.
He doesn't cry, or even tear up. But it'd be a lie if he said he didn't want to. ]
It's not a competition with us
But if it were I'd be playing catch up after all you did for me before yk. I don't think you get it.
You deserve it
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I'll always be here for you, whenever
Sorry if this is super private but you don't seem like you're used to kindness
Or at least like someone hugging you or telling you you can feel however
I think that should change so
idk if ever you're curious about any of it, I'm cool with that
My mom was super affectionate, and that just caught on for me and my dad
I'll never turn you away if you need something
now I'm sorry...
[ Hugging him. Telling him his feelings are valid. Any gesture of physical affection that isn't inherently violent or used to tease. Without plausible deniability, it doesn't feel acceptable. ]
Idk. I can try. It's just different for me
But I wish I could've had a chance to meet your mom. Maybe I could tell her how much of her rubbed off on you. That you turned out okay, even with how lame you are. Those parts are good too
She was prob lame about some stuff too. So meeting you's like meeting half of her
🤬
Hugging him, touching his hair, holding his waist, nearly kissing him in the cold dark... Jonas wishes he could rewind to that moment by the wing of his ship and ask Noctis for his permission to do so. It's almost impossible to stop himself now, with his thumbs shaking over the keyboard of his datapad.
To be compared so closely to his mom is the highest compliment anyone could give him. To admit he's blushing would be an understatement when his face feels like it's on fire. )
Saying this kind of thing to me lol
You're seriously trying me
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You're a good influence on me
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[ Noctis, predictably, misunderstands. Gently, and with good intent, but a misunderstanding nevertheless. It doesn't mean Jonas's next words don't furrow his brow, forcing him to take a moment to himself. ]
Thanks Jonas
From what I heard about her, I think my mom would've felt the same with you. I'll have to keep an eye on you tho, for her sake
What was her name?
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Suzanne
She preferred Suze
She thought it sounded younger
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I'm just sensitive, so the things you say to me are worth a lot
Like talking so nicely about my mom and saying you gotta watch my back for her
Telling me your mom would like me too
Do you know what I mean?
( Of course, Noctis doesn't. Jonas doesn't even know what he's trying to say.
Maybe they can discuss it next time they're together, openly and frankly. Maybe on that day of fishing, quiet contemplation, and stargazing, after he's had time to organize his thoughts. About his fondness for Cain. About his fondness for Noctis.
Maybe then. )
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I gotta go but I'll text you later
What was your mom's name?
Like real quick before I go, I just wanna know first
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But he remembers how it felt when Jonas spoke to him gently after he told him about his father. Even if he never said Regis's name and the topic strayed so quickly from love to despair, he felt what it was to share a little piece of that part of himself and have it accepted. It felt like a different kind of love. ]
Sure np, this morning's kind of crazy
Thx for reaching out and talking. It helped, so if it helped you too that's good enough for me. And we can keep talking about it later if you want
About Suze. [ It fits. It sounds warm, inviting somehow. He isn't sure he could explain it. ]
Or about my mom. Aulea
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Pushing outside into the sand, he chokes out a distressed "Yeah, okay," as though Noctis can hear him. Overwhelmed, he doesn't write back. Not when it'd be so much easier to sink into the strong affection he was finally feeling instead of grief and anxiety.
Not when he has to see Cain. Needs to see Cain. )