I'm more bothered by what happened as a whole to everybody else than what I went through with it, if that makes sense. Physically I had it easy. Can't say most of the kids are doing as well.
Yeah. That makes sense. Morningstar will do what they can for them, but.
[ That's not enough. Nothing can be. ]
When you sign up to be an agent, you really think you're prepared for it, y'know? But it's too much for anyone, especially those left behind.
[ It's not helpful or comforting, but it is true. Losses of this level. Partners killed and children left behind. The potential that someone you knew caused this to happen. He doesn't need to imagine what it's like for Morningstar, when he'd stood in the midst of the HYDRA uprising, as moles killed his fellow agents ― and a friend sentenced him to death, like all the rest. A breach of this level sweeps all things away, like sheets of rain.
As of late, Fitz has been cold and colder, but this tragedy pries open old wounds. ]
[ He reads the words once, then again. It's... still composed, in the way he's come to expect from Fitz, but the question is like an invitation. Or maybe a hint, a prodding to speak and to listen in equal measure. A little more open, a little more humanizing. ]
I don't get what that's like but I can guess
I didn't sign up for anything back home, I was born into my role. Makes for a big change. Didn't think I was prepared for that, but whether it's there or here if I'm looking at people like those kids or their parents I don't have time to think about it. I just do what I have to do.
That's the easy part, and staying moving's how I deal with it. You too?
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Though emergency medical care can be uniquely stressful.
[ zero interest in being that kind of doctor again anytime soon mm hmm ]
And I'm alright, thanks. Just bumps and scrapes.
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I'm more bothered by what happened as a whole to everybody else than what I went through with it, if that makes sense. Physically I had it easy. Can't say most of the kids are doing as well.
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Yeah. That makes sense.
Morningstar will do what they can for them, but.
[ That's not enough. Nothing can be. ]
When you sign up to be an agent, you really think you're prepared for it, y'know?
But it's too much for anyone, especially those left behind.
[ It's not helpful or comforting, but it is true. Losses of this level. Partners killed and children left behind. The potential that someone you knew caused this to happen. He doesn't need to imagine what it's like for Morningstar, when he'd stood in the midst of the HYDRA uprising, as moles killed his fellow agents ― and a friend sentenced him to death, like all the rest. A breach of this level sweeps all things away, like sheets of rain.
As of late, Fitz has been cold and colder, but this tragedy pries open old wounds. ]
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I don't get what that's like but I can guess
I didn't sign up for anything back home, I was born into my role. Makes for a big change. Didn't think I was prepared for that, but whether it's there or here if I'm looking at people like those kids or their parents I don't have time to think about it. I just do what I have to do.
That's the easy part, and staying moving's how I deal with it. You too?
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You just do what you have to do. Right. Can't look back. ]
Yeah.
My partner always says I can't sit still.
[ not for studying together at the academy ― and certainly not during the missions that followed. ]
What role were you born into?
[ service? leadership? the closest example he'll have is the asgardians, like sif, who stand for their people. ]